It’s so hard for me.
Every day … the same thing.
Trying to understand the incomprehensible.
Dumb, I know. It’s just the way my mind continues to torment me. It just won’t shut up.
The incomprehensible … grace.
Grace received and so undeserved.
This grace … “unmerited favor.”  
Even more … “enabling power sufficient for progression.”
Wow.
That last meaning has to be read 2-3 times to get it. 
God giving us power to go on …. to move on … to get past the things that are always pulling us backwards. God’s daily presence pushing us to do what He created us to do and be in spite of ourselves.
Without grace, we have nothing.
I often compare myself to the Israelites. Despite the many times they turned their back on God, He continued to love them. He desired them. Despite their unfaithfulness, He remained and remains faithful. He refused to abandon them or let them go. And yet, still, they kept going around that same mountain. Just like me sometimes.
Now, there were consequences for the Israelites. There always is.
But, God’s grace is always there in the midst of the pain of these consequences. He’s the One that gets us through. The Only One who can.
On the days where I feel like I just can’t go on, there’s grace. His grace. His “unmerited favor.”
I don’t understand it no matter how much I try.
I just have to believe it. I just have to trust it. I just have to know it.
It’s the only way I’ll make it.