I realized something last night.
I don’t slow down.
I dream about slowing down.
But, every time I try, something throws a kink into my plans
Honestly, slowing down is not part of my make-up.
Not sure why it’s so difficult to me. Even when I’m relaxing, my mind is going a mile-a-minute.
I was reminded of the Scripture last night where Elijah heard God’s voice in the quiet whisper:
 Then he was told, “Go, stand on the mountain at attention before GodGod will pass by.”

    A hurricane wind ripped through the mountains and shattered the rocks before God, but Godwasn’t to be found in the wind; after the wind an earthquake, but God wasn’t in the earthquake; and after the earthquake fire, but God wasn’t in the fire; and after the fire a gentle and quiet whisper.

 When Elijah heard the quiet voice, he muffled his face with his great cloak, went to the mouth of the cave, and stood there. A quiet voice asked, “So Elijah, now tell me, what are you doing here?” 1 Kings 19:11-14

Sometimes I feel like I’m begging God to hear His voice and for a fresh, new vision of who He is … a new revelation … a new glimpse.
I realize He’s there all the time, in the same place. But, it’s me that’s holding myself back from more of Him.
I’m the one that has not only moved, but can’t stop moving.
“Be still” … those words seem almost impossible.
But, how else can I hear His still, small voice, but when I’m quiet and still?
Instead of searching and running, I should be sitting still.
Even my mind races from one thought to the next.
Keeping my mind still and quiet is unthinkable.
I want God to be the One moving me and not me moving God. 
“Hurry up, God … I need this right now.” 
“God, I can’t wait anymore. I have to move forward.” 
“God, if You’re not going to answer me, I’ll have to find an answer myself.”
I treat God like He’s the annoying grandpa driver in front of me, going 35 mph. I just want Him to either speed it up or get out of my way.
I’m ready to slow down. 
I’m ready to be quiet.
God, I want to hear Your voice above all the noise in my head and in my life.