In deed, I have many flaws.
I could make a list that would fill this blog from now until I’m dead and gone.
But, thankfully, for you, I won’t do that.
I’ll list one: Impatience.
I hate waiting.
Hate it.
I am a get-it-done-now type of person. I don’t understand people that wait until the last minute to do things.
My mother always said, “Why wait until tomorrow to do what you can do today?” or something like that.
That’s not to say I have never procrastinated. I have. Trust me … my youngest child is still 4 years old if you look in her scrapbook (she’ll be 9 next month).
But, when it comes to waiting on answers, I fail miserably. I am impatient and feel like I’m that little child that stamps her feet, waves her fists, and screams, “Tell me, tell me, tell me.”
I need to know now.
Things I love are: resolve, closure, resolution, decision, settlement, and happy endings. Stuff like that.
Not knowing and waiting on answers drives me crazy.
I have always heard that you should never pray for patience. I’m sure you can imagine why.
I realize that a lack of patience is actually a lack of trust.
If I’m agonizing over whether God will grant me favor or not in a situation or waiting on whether God is leading me one way or another, I’m not trusting.
This is what I read this morning:
“With God on our side like this, how can we lose? If God didn’t hesitate to put everything on the line for us, embracing our condition and exposing Himself to the worst by sending His own Son, is there anything else He wouldn’t gladly and freely do for us? And who would dare tangle with God by messing with one of God’s chosen? Who would dare even to point a finger? The One who died for us – who was raised to life for us! – is in the presence of God at this very moment sticking up for us. ” – Romans 8:31-34 (The Message)

Don’t tangle with God by messing with me. I love that part.
But, really, why would I ever doubt a God who did, literally put EVERYTHING on the line for me?
He is my provider. He is my defender. He is my strength.
So, I will wait … patiently … knowing that He is sticking up for me.