Beau says he really admires my discipline. He said this in a non-sarcastic, truthful manner as I was putting on my running shoes.
My reply: “What? Really?”
This caught me off-guard.
He says I’m a very disciplined person.
Funny how other people see you completely opposite as you see yourself.
I think I’m the most undisciplined person I know.
For instance:
I can’t pass up a good cookie or piece of chocolate to save my life.
I try to think of every excuse not to run.
Some nights I forget to read my Bible.
Controlling my tongue is a whole issue in itself.
I can’t close my bathroom closet door because the laundry is piled so high.
I have dirty dishes in the sink.
I’ve been meaning to organize my downstairs storage closet for several months now and it’s still not done.
Some nights my family has sandwiches or some sort of frozen meal or cereal for dinner.
I can go a week without shaving my legs.
There are some clothing items in my closet I don’t wear because I would have to iron them.
I could go on and on.
In fact, you know what’s funny? I could put “and I feel extremely guilty because of it” after every one of these.
Maybe that’s the reason why people see me as disciplined. Because for me, the guilt of not doing some of these things is worse than actually just getting off my butt and doing them.
If at first you don’t succeed, try, try again. I fail every day, but start over the next day with a new commitment to not fail and to push through my “don’t want tos.”
If that makes me disciplined … um … OK.
Take what you can get, girl. Sadly, there’s nothing about me that’s disciplined – which is why I’ve packed on the weight I have.
“Try, try again.” AMEN!
G.R.A.C.E.
Oh goodness you made me laugh!
I went all winter without shaving my legs, but I have transparent hair…
And I too can NOT pass up a cookie or cake…unless it has raisins in it. Then I’ll barf.
How long have I been saying I want to paint my room? 4 months…my problem is I’m too lazy…I want to paint my bedroom a smokey blue grey…my bathroom is blue and I can’t have two rooms the same shade of color, it drive me nuts. So I first have to paint the bathroom which requires a lot more work. I have the new color picked I’m just not ready to do the work.
It’s rather pitiful…I should take pictures…but that would mean outting myself and then the guilt would start.
So yes, you are disciplined.
Sometimes I keep my thoughts to myself but HAVE to comment on this one! I feel exactly how you do, that is, until I read The Birth Order Book. It describes the
“Discouraged Perfectionist”, which is me. This person is afraid of failing, therefore has a hard time starting a task. Totally me. I know I can’t do it in the time allotted so I don’t do it. We cannot open the bottom 3 drawers of the dresser because of clothing!
Read the book, it will help with the guilt. He is a Christian so I give him a bit more trust than others.
You are ok. Just fine. Don’t be too hard on yourself. read it and it will help. are you 1st born by the way?
what is it about guilt…plagues me too….
Brie,
You’ve got me pegged. Not only first-born, but only. Yep, that’s me, always trying for perfection and never reaching it.
I knew it D. Read the book. Did I already say that? Is Beau the baby? That would explain alot. You will learn so much about yourself and everyone you know. Even how to parent you children in their birth order rather than “the same way”. I feel like a drug pusher, only its books, anyhow. It would make you feel ALOT less guilty about yourself. It did me wonders! I finally found a way to get laundry under control. Email me if you want to chat more!
Discipline? What’s that?
No really! You have discipline – you blog everyday don’t you?!
That takes A TON of discipline :}
There you go, talking about me again!
Hmm, who knew? I must be disciplined too. Almost every one of those things you listed are true of me too!! 😉
Tomorrow’s a new day…..or…..There’s always tomorrow! These seem to be my motto, more often than not. I truly can relate!!!
I think that’s the main thing, just to keep tryin’.
Love.This.Post
And I am equal with you on most of your “undisciplined actions”.
Love ya!
I just wrote a comment and put a lot of thought into it. But I somehow deleted it before sending it. I’m too undisciplined to re-type it! Maybe later. (How many times can I use the word “it” in 3 sentences?)
Oh, you have my name and number with this one, girl. I am the poster child for being undisciplined, and I always feel guilty. Yes, I know that there is grace and mercy and that we can’t always do everything. But I know when I am trying and when I’m not…and lately I have not been trying.
So thanks for the encouragement…
Ohhh can I relate to this!!! 🙂
I’m trying, but I’m not doing very well. Not at all!
-FringeGirl